Wednesday, August 16, 2006

Excitement is inversely proportional to conclusion.

Well I called the numbers for this cousin of mine in Columbus. The land line I was given is disconnected or not in service. The cell number went to voicemail (if I don't recognize the number I don't answer at least 50% of the time, so not a huge shock), and the outgoing message says "You've reached my voicemail. Leave me a message and I'll call you back." So I have no way of knowing if it's even the person I'm supposed to be reaching. But I left a detailed message, saying who I am, what my numbers are, and why I'm calling.

I have become more impatient lately, so I guess that's why I'm already disappointed that I haven't heard back. Later in the evening, I called back the man I spoke to yesterday afternoon, Ellis, and got his answering machine. I left him a voicemail asking him to give his daughter my numbers, as I was unable to reach her. I also mentioned that he could call me back. I haven't heard from him either. He seemed so nice on the phone, so I can't imagine that he's being rude or anything deliberate, but I have such a pessimistic mind.

In the meantime, I was thinking more about calling my grandfather, which my mom encouraged. Instead I stayed up half the night creating a letter to write to him. Once I had the idea to write to him, my mind couldn't stop composing the letter. I didn't actually put pen to paper (or keyboard to computer, since I'd rather type than write) until today, though. Then I spent the afternoon debating whether I should just call him and get it over with, or send the letter. I think it would be less of a shock if I wrote him, plus it gives me the opportunity to put my thoughts in order, instead of risking sounding like I am retarded if I call him and get flustered. So I have the letter saved at work. I will handwrite it before I send it, but the composing goes so much better when I can type it. I can type at 100+ wpm, but my hand cramps if I hold a pen too long. Guess them's the breaks in the technology age.

Anyway, I appreciate the support being thrown my way. It's such a weird experience to go through. Then again, I think some of you people are weird if your parents were always married and you know everybody in your family. So there.


Anonymous said...

If it makes you feel any better, people have been dodging my calls/text messages today as well.

Cathy said...

I hope you get or already got a call soon. This must be very frustrating for you. It must be going around, I'm pessimistic to the point of insomia, so you are not alone in your negative thoughts lately.

I will watch for an update.

Lugosi said...

You people are a bunch of rookies. People have been dodging my messages for decades, since even before they invented answering machines.

Amy: Your link is still there. It's under the category of "Recently Added Links," and that's just below today's terror alert color level sticker. I do plan to redo left hand column a bit this weekend and move that category closer to the top. It tends to get lost at the moment.

And if this comment appears twice, it's because Blogger has been acting up this morning. It apparently ate my first comment, and I had trouble posting an entry on my own site.

FroneAmy said...

Aww at least I'm not the only one who gets screened.

My brother-in-law goes on a huge rant about how we are all tied to the phone, and he will refuse to answer the phone sometimes. He won't even get up to see who it is. He just won't answer.

I'm sort of wondering if it's just not meant to be, you know? Maybe there's a reason my dad died before I got to meet him; and a reason that they're not calling me back.

ha, my word verification is bmmbn....looks like 'bummin' to me.